saturday morning

another week is going to pass..OMG...i was eating maggi mee in front of the computer and i saw MR TOBY WONG'S post...he posted a video up on face book..(which scares the hell out of me just by looking at the picture)ok i was really really scared and i can't seem to finish my noodles now...the video is about some reckless driver( i look at the title) the face is like arhhhhh!!!!!freak freak!!!i just feel like relaxing abit today and i saw such horror in the morning...its terrifying...

however, its really sweet of baby to sms me....warning me not to watch toby's gruesomely gooooooooooooorrrrrrrryyyyy, and scary video.....

psssss: he knows i'm afraid...wakaka....i watch heroes recently and he had to warn me when the scary parts comes out...ok ok, im timid about all this...i admit...haha...

oya and later will be going sim lim square with joel gor gor..wakaka...he want to buy mp3 player...haiyo...he always like to buy cheap cheap stuff...thats y i like to go walk walk with him de...we cazn talk about cheapo sales and look at cheapo stuff...haha...so funny....

idk what to blog now..hmm...now its so funny, MR LESTER LIAO WEI REN is telling his life story now...and some of my classmates are listening so ATTENTIVELY ..ok...i'm lame..have nothing to talk about and my History and theory of ideas seminar presentation is next next week...time check - 12.24pm...
noon, sunny...time left,exactly 2weeks before seminar presentation...sad..

fading into the world

"i have tongues but i cant speak, i have ears but i cant hear"...wonder if others feel the same way as i did...well, this is how i feel...non- christians may not understand...i had been backsliding for sometime, every sunday, i have to face the temptation of  skipping church..yesterday, sze li told me, after baptism, there will be a point of time where the evil one will do all means to snatch your soul away from the holy one..its very true...(please don't think i'm crazy) but my soul wants to go home...the desire of the physical always exceds the internal..for example, if a beautiful girl(megan fox, taylor swift...blah, whoever you think is pretty) seduced a married man, he will have to face the temptation of the body yet the sul doesn't want to to that..its the body..thats what i'm trying to say..

"i have tongues but i cant speak"- in christian term, theres a gift from God, the word of tongue...some christians will be given this gift..(to speak in the holy language)  (i'm sorry if you think i'm weird and bullshitting, but if you are my friend, you will try to understand that i'm in pain you may not be able to fight this with me. but your understanding is going to take  me to the extra mile)  i'm given this gift, but now, i'm too guilty of using it or a person speak of it again
"i have ears but i cant hear"- also in christian terms, most christian can sense the "holy spirit" within us..whui sin once said, if a person continue sinning, one day the holy spirit will leave us. i also agree to that..cause i felt this way...god is a gentleman, he gives us choices..yet now, my body choses the world and i feel that i can't overcome it...i really wanna go back and be sensitive to the holy one again...


seriously i hope that you who read this post dun think i'm crazy its just my struggle

SOS:HELP(soul)

23rd january 2010

Loreal Making faces

went to wisma atria for the making faces record breaking make over..had fun cause i went with sze li..ok, first sze li and i went for lunch..ate hokkien mee at food republic. next we went to the makeover place..ok, so my make up counter is number 20 and sze li's is 19..woah!!i didn get to take a pic of myslf making up but i took for sze li..

next we went to bakerzinc for teabreak, had a cake and lemon tea...so yummy...

Alumni dinner...

i went back to orchid park secondary school for alumni dinner...was so pissed off..cause i planned to have my dinner with the friend that got me the ticket..in the end he  left me alone...left without a goodbye..i was so angry and i called asshole to confide my anger...thanks asshole, you know who you are..saw alton and ka kun there..of cause with some others ass well, but the rest is all pioneer student..how weird..thats why i felt left out cause he left me with people that i didn know...so insecure...i wish i can trust him again...but it will definitely take sometime..or maybe a long time...

absence

it had been a few days since i blogged
had been rather bsy with school stuff..so today, i went to gain city exhibition at the singapore expo....bought lots of things..haha

keyboard, blender, kettle, clothes, mouse, compter vacuum cleaner, usb port..haha...but the keyboardot so nice to use...dots..the blender and kettle cost $8.80 eaconly..oie...abit cheapskate and auntie...haha...dun blame me la...i went out with my mom leh...heee...had jap food for breakfast and BK for dinner...so when i reachhome, i decide to go o chuch...went for makan with lao da they all...had fun...but lao da did something that i amost cried...cus i was touched by what he did..although i had been skipping church, he still cares..well somehow i had already treated him as some1 i wants to care for...some1 like my family...just dk how to say...than wewnt to orchid country club for pool...had fun...and i get to know 3 person...chris, jeremy and ?? dkwhats his name...k la...thats about it...anticipate for my next post...cus its 23jan, loreal making faces will me my next stop and nex post...plus plus plus, orchid park alumni diner..good night everybody...

complicated!

gosh!so frustrated...been so damn broke and cant do anything...so sick that i eat so much for 1 meal...and i feel im growing fatter!!!piack myslf!..hmmm.!!!how come my course so expensive one!so zzzzzzzzz!no time to sleep, no money, no time for friends, no time no time no time!grrr...


(sorry just wanna vent my anger) pardon abit...haha

photo,memories, eternity

Yesterday, when i'm in my studio, i wanted to take a picture with lester and brandon..well, in my previous blog, i said that i want to collect photos of my friends, and i've been doing that...so lester and brandon asked, you want take picture for what? BO LIAO...wha..this is so turn off...haha!but i'm glad that despite me being such a pest by bugging them to take a picture with me, they still took it...


well, people will definitely think that why i want pictures of my friends and i in my room..precisely its because your own room is your own personal space. where you spend most of your time when you are at home. thats why people will tend not to know and get into it. having their pictures in my room would certainly mean that i wanted them to be part of my life. cause they will be just like every single pieces of puzzle that made up trina..

i know you care

hey this post is specially dedicated to the people who pop by or even a regular to my blog..i do wish to know who u are and really wanna say a big thank you that you care so much about my life...well, i was touched in my heart that people are concern about my life, cause sometimes, when you are so down and stressed up by school work, u will suddenly realise that you have no one to confide to.thats why i often write down my emotions in my blog...

but still, THANK YOU VERY MUCH MY DEAR WONDERFUL FRIENDS

Love or just sacrifice?

well, had been thinking much just now...was feeling not so good. hmm, well, don't u find that sometimes its weird..when u love, like, care and concern for someone, you don't mind sacrificing...at first, in every relationship, it bounds to be sweet and romancing, the guy will care about the girl, the girl will care about the guy. but gradually, either one of the party will start to neglect how the other feels..maybe its just human nature but its not very right to use human nature as an excuse..or maybe you are in love with someone whom you know will never last and will never have a happily ever after, yet you relied so much onto him/her because maybe he or she gave you a sense of belonging, sense of security. you want to protect him/her wants to give him/her everything and you did. What if he or she tells you, "hey, you better don't expect too much from me". so everytime you sacrifice, you will have to go through the thought that u can't expect and shouldn't be expecting, or even hope that he or she will treat you better. its tiring though to please someone cause it will never be enough and slowly, you will feel you are being take for granted. Its simply just so different in comparison from the beginning..he/she will send you smses or msn, asking you to have your meal, what are you doing and somehow make you feel sweet that someone was thinking about you. but gradually, as you give in, smses gets lesser and shorter, he/she will not notice your presence (even if you appear online purposely) well, its just a hard fact that as times pass by, the heart just wanders and everything starts to grow cold.

if someone says, "i will still care for you like how i care for you the first day i met you" it may just merely be a lie that he/she never realise that its a promise he/she can't keep.


the hard truth....

exhausted

after doing my freaking scary hdb model, i feel so tired now...its rather draining and i went to bugis just now with lester and brandon to buy copic markers, had a meal with them at aloy thai...the food is so nice..wahaha...and so on...long story cut short, i was sleeping on the train like a pig cus im so tired...and when i wake up, i almost missed my stop...oh my goodness...thank god i woke up in time and came out...nevermind about that, its only a small matter..now the big matter came...when i exited from the train and go towards the escalator, a man in white top and black pants approache me and keep asking me "you look so tired, where you went to play" of cause i didn answer him and i gave him the not happy look before walking away...feeling freak out and frightened...in my heart i was scolding this pervert-"just finish project, pig also know i will be tired..no common sense" well, ok just to admit, i was so scared and afraid that he will follow me so i was paranoid...what a jerk...its actually been sometime since i blogged cus i wasn't free...show you guys some pics on my model, the whole class actually build 3 blocks of old HDB located at stirling road but some scale is wrong, so dun look that good...but never mind, its still a very good effort and here is the picture-