hunt or be hunted.

so long since i blogged, not that im busy, its just that i start to hate to write how i feel up here..people will think 'forget it and close your blog' but all i can say i no. for many out there, that i have offended u in anyways, im sorry, not that i wanna please u but im sorry that i have hurt u..now its holidays, and im seriously rotting at home and have nothing else better to do...started to think and wonder about alot of things.

recently i read about an article, its about man hunting a women, its actually very true.some like to live in the  wrong perception, this is what that ios quoted "They know deep down they don't have the ability to catch the queen of the jungle (the lioness) but they like to think that they might, maybe." i have a certain admiration towards guys who are bold yet i will grow skeptical towards them, i often wonder if thats true or its just a fling.

Its kinda funny too especially in the ring of relationship. Its really like mind game.so what if a girl have grown an interest towards a guy? still we must keep the fun on going, zzzzz...thats guy's ego,,,well, the important point is to allow the hunter to feel he is doing the chasing, even if secretly he isn't. Its the success and achievement he wants to feel isn't it?

for me, i use to hunt guys, (to put it really crudly) and i ended up dead. haha...cus in the end, the one that get hurt most is only you and you alone, to reflect back, i'm not at all proud that i have 7 ex bf. cus it than reflect how much a failure in relationship i am. But this is something tht keeps me strong and move on and wants to make things better when i meet my mr right. im still really young yet all this things about love start triggering in my mind. Dates after dates, its actually better in some point but when u find u need him to be there, the one that u dun expect is the one that stood by u and secretly u'll fall for him without knowing. waiting for his msg but it didn come, this remind me of my favourite song, 'Maybe' by jay sean.

below are the lyics
Beep Beep! oh look now there goes my phone


And once again im just hopin it's a text from you..hmm..

It aint right read ya messages twice, thrice

Four times a night its true

Everyday I patiently wait

Feelin like a fool but I do, anyway

Nothing can feel as sweet and as real

As knowing I wasn't waiting in vain..



[Chorus:]

maybe its true

I'm caught up on you

Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too

maybe i'm wrong

It's all in my head

Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said





[Verse 2:]

I'm always connected online

Hooked on facebook all the time

Hopin you've Checked my profile

Just can't help wondering why,

You play it cool but,

see I'm hopelessly fallin for you,

Every night on the phone and I flirt with you..

and I know that you like it girl

All jokin aside,

What say you and I

Come out and say what we're trying to hide..



[Chorus:]

maybe its true

I'm caught up on you

Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too

maybe im wrong

It's all in my head

Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said





[Bridge:]

Like I really want you,

I think I need you,

Baby I miss you,

I'm thinking of you [x2]



[Guitar Solo]



[Chorus:]

maybe its true (OH)

I'm caught up on you (maybe, yeah)

Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too (Stuck on me too)

maybe i'm wrong (Hey baby, yeah..)

It's all in my head.. (OH NO)

Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said

(both haven't said)



Maybe Its True I'm Caught Up On You

Maybe There's A Chance that You're Stuck On Me Too

Maybe I'm Wrong, It's All In My Head

Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said



[Outro]

Maybe it's true..(Baby I Miss You)

I'm caught up on you (Look I Want You)

Maybe I am wrong

Baby I miss you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YelGZjy0Tlg
 
isnt it really true?
well, its just like a fairy tale. a damsel in distress, and a prince on a white horse pop in. haha!

back to square one

haha!!i had so much fun at the grandfinals ytd. but now=( im gonna get a hell load of time cause i have to do my projects again!!arghhhh!! i hate it i hate it!!!i miss the girls=( no more rehearsal now. ='(

re: msg on my tag box

hi whoever you are, thanks for "concerning" about me but for your information, ears are not meant to hear about gossips but to share people's problem, if your ear like to hear people gossip, cut it away. People wanna woo me is their choice. I have no rights to stop them. Well, perhaps, you have no rights to judge about others as well, so what if their eyes are blind. I have flaws and i dare to admit. but what about you? dare to say things about me but don't dare to put down your name. At least leave yourself some respect ok? And i tell you what mr/ miss damn and ... i can be open to tell things about myself to people but i'm not a loose girl, do you even care to ask what happen? you didn't. since you like to hear people's gossip, go ahead. cus i won't stop you, but don't worry, even i know who you are, i won't gossip about you=)

it has been really long

had been sometime since i blogged..was really trying to bottle up how i really feel this month or so. Really been so tough. school and pagent. i learnt a dance for the pagent and gosh, i danced like a clown. i don't feel good at all. You know, i really feel upset about it. i don't know what had happen and i feel totally lost. thank god, althea and a few girls stood by me. through the pagent, i see alot. i started to believe that actually can trust in girls. well, truthfully, most of my close friends are guys. At first, i don't dare to talk to sharin cus she look do cool and don't talk much but in the end, she is really nice. althea is my best friend in the pagent. she really looked after me. and i'm very blessed by her. she bought me a top and pinky underwear. haha...!!!i feel really touched..I don't know what to say and i kept quiet but as im writing this post, i'm overwhelmed with tears. Well, i see the cruel part in this pagent as well. Gossips and backstab. i'm so afraid of that because this is the main reason i lose trust in girls and pin my hope into guys instead. well, im not a flirt but im more comfortable with guys. and well, althea, sharin, krizzia and few girls showed me different things and made me look at things in a different perspective. sometimes to tink about it, i'm afraid to write down what i really feel in my blog because perhaps now when in the pagent, you tend to be more cautious about what you say. I wanna share about how i feel once more. well, secretly here in my blog, i wanna thank althea, nass, krizz, sharin, ivy and celestine for the support you gave me today.

dates

hmm...so stressed up recently...after breaking up with my ex, i had a few guys who is wooing me...i feel extremely stressed...sometimes, u dun understand..when u have no one to woo u, u dun feel good and to the extent maybe feel empty, but when theres too many, its hard to handle. the last thing i ever want on this earth is to break a guy's heart.but sometimes, i have to. i dun want it to end up bad. i just want respect and time. having a bas headache and i really misses my pet stray cat. thinking of her gives me a smile. everytime she sees me, she will run to me. i hope i can seek comfort just by playing with her now. this gloomy weather is making me double gloomy..=(

make over

came here just to give credits to the makeup artist and the photographer who does my make over for the pagent..but i didn buy the photos..hmm....anw, finished my holidays homework!!weee...but sure theres more coming up...omg!!!!i want homework free holiday..=( now its like world cup season...all the coffeeshop is earning..haha...i hope worldcup never ends..it feel so good to see people who don't know each other yet bonded by a common goal: watch people score goal..haha...

i like my-new hairdo

1: a great thank you to eric of mystique hair salon and his fellow hairstylists. now i have a newly highlighted hair and some nice haircut. love it. this is part of the miss singapore pagent process..i really appreiate it. feel like a princess. so i must get myself ready for the photoshoot on the 22nd june. =)
sleeping time...goodnight everyone

MISS SINGAPORE WORLD

wow!!after much trying..or i say 2 tries of new paper new face..haha..i got into miss singapore..i'm not too sure if this is the finals means i have to call up the management and check it out. so well, lester accompanied me. i'm thankful for him. thanks lester!! and also my agent, liu, for giving me valuable advise. right now, i'm gonna try my best for this competition. so that means i have lots of admin stuff to settle with school.. asking about how should i juggle competition with school's assignment. hope we can work somethings out. seriously i'm overjoyed. wanna share my joy with all the people around me cause i know some of my friends have high hopes on me and i really don't want to let them down. Just a joke, i'm going to squeeze out the very best of my capabilities and use my capabilities to squeeze out every thing i can learn from the people i'm gonna meet in the future from this pagent. saw so many beautiful girls today. i think the previous year new paper new face girls are there as well.. they look beautiful. i may not be as beautiful as they are but i know a beautiful heart makes a person beautiful. of cause everyone have their unique beauty. right??(say right) haha...lol...

than after the interview, i went to meet my daddy!!he brought me to pasir ris fish farm to get a new fish pond for his fish..i saw chicken and rooster!gosh...and little chicks..they are so cute..seriously, its my first time that i saw chicks.  below are the pics.

but anyway..

thanks to siok kan, lester, vivian, brandon, lydia, han bin and xinyi we went to marina barage to celebrate siok kan's birthday, that really cheer me up so much...i stil remember last year was terrible, i didn manage to get in new paper new face 2009 and on that day, my ex boyfriend broke up with me...terrible...hmm..well, really thankful for them...if not i will go home, stuff myself in my blanket and cry till i sleep, but the strong trina will only emerge stronger...no TNP new face, theres still other oppotunity coming up...GO GO GO!!

long time since

i blogged..completed my submission..yeah!!!but more complications is up, relationship, new projects etc...gosh..well, sad to say, i didn manage to get in the new paper new face...but nevertheless, i will still hang on..ready to take up new challenges..hmm...relationship wise, there had been a downfall too...seem like i'm getting to no where in my present relationship..there seem to be so little communication between me and him. and as for my part, i didn't really wanna get to know more about him...i think my feelings are fading..its only 1 month plus...i hate it that my relationship cant last..but i don't seem to meet the right guy yet..why??=(
maybe its not time..i'll wait cus im still young..its not that i'm a flirt, but its just that i feel uncomfortable when i'm with him.. i wanna share alot of stuff with him but i just couldn't..

hmm, really wanna refresh everypart of my life...maybe stay single in the mean time and wait for someone else...i really don't know...so confused...